God lies within

God lies within:
 
 My truth lies beneath layers of lies,
 And those lies lay on top of hidden cries,
 Hidden truths I hide within my shell of a self,
 That’s been left by the traumatic effects of poverty and wealth.
 Not just materially but spiritual life,
 As a daughter, sister, friend and wife,
 Cutting deep through those layers I practice each day,
 After discovering my traumas depth it could go either way,
 Perhaps another relapse to plaster over pain,
 Or perhaps sobriety will send me insane,
 Having to sit with my emotions now that can be tough,
 Not nearly however as cruel and as rough,
 As the ongoing torture that came with addiction,
 Abuse after abuse through internal confliction,
 As I sit getting high alone in my room,
 Not able to self reflect or perspectively zoom,
 In and out of my own being as close and as far,
 As you watch yourself drive then crash the metaphorical car,
 Your life being taken over by drug and self harm,
 All you need is a God who's got charisma and charm,
 To show you the light and bright future that holds,
 Endless possibilities in the heat and colds,
 Every season, every space, every thought you can think,
 It is all possible to you if you simply don't drink,
 That poison that's killing all of us slowly,
 One sip at a time you didn't notice you were poorly,
 Kindness and compassion is all it takes,
 To overcome the sweats and the overwhelming shakes,
 It's all in your head, the universe is mental,
 If that is so, then this crisis isn't so existential,
 You are stronger than you believe yourself to be,
 Open your heart and your eyes will see,
 You're no longer alone you never truly were,
 It now seems obvious and you can say duhh,
 Of course it makes sense, life is suffering,
 But God will support you and be mothering,
 Hold you in their arms and walk whilst they carry,
 You don't have to divorce, you don't have to marry,
 Anything you do is good enough for them,
 They love you all the same, you're 10/10,
 Struggle no more, settle in their lap,
 The window is so close all you do is tap,
 Then God will answer and guide your way,
 Now you can relax and enjoy your day,
 Feel free to cry feel free to shout,
 God will listen without a doubt,
 So open yourself up for love from above,
 Now spread your wings and fly little dove...